In the past few years, there have been days I was busy with courses, exams, interviews. Some days it was down to food, sleep, playing or movies. Still I have kept myself in touch with a few friends now and then. There have been a few whom I didn't forget but just did not contact often. It gets interesting when one fine day I get up and decide to contact such a friend. Sometimes, we share a hearty laugh about having lost contact, some friends just understand that in today's world such periods of non-contact do appear and take it easy, and sadly a few times we feel a big gap between the two and an awkward silence. My thought always comes back to the question - why is it that talking to a wonderfully good friend, just out of contact for a time period suddenly feels so awkward?
I am not writing here to blame/defend either myself/my friends whom I lost touch with. I am thinking what makes us feel this awkwardness leading to some more time of "out of touch". Did I just not care? Weren't we good friends at all? Was it just growing up (or apart!)? If any of these were true, it should have applied to others... May be as they say in love - "it just was not meant to be", "it is destiny". Well, I partly agree to this - but there has to be something more to this than say destiny.
Why is it that when we revisit our past (especially childhood) that we feel so happy with moist eyes? Most of us want to revisit only such events is a case in point. And that such memories are often held with affection and joy is a more pressing point. Friends I wanted to get back in touch are also such memories. We do have a good friendship and it is always a joy to talk to a friend.
So that awkwardness and a sense of gone apart - is it just life's way of telling me that I was lazy? Perhaps it is just that either of us did not expect us to be talking again. Or may be some friendships are just meant to be sweet memories, that no longer can be rekindled. Or may be each of us felt guilty and did not press to avoid this feeling. May be it simply was not the right time to call. May be some day in future we will get in touch and have a laugh about this awkward silence too !!!